I got tagged...

I am - dying to go on a vacation with friends and not have my parents there! (and not have my mom worry that something is going to happen to me...)

I want - a wii (thanks Rachel for getting me addicted!)

I hear - drama from people all the time and it annoys the hell out of me. Why do you people put yourselves in these situations!?!

I work- all the time, even when I don't have to...

I travel- less than I want to...

I often- feel sick to my stomach literally from all my medications but I won't say anything because nobody likes a whiny woman!

I wonder - if some people will ever grow up...

I learn- new things everyday...somethings are useful somethings are just mindless clutter...

I eat- very little, but always gain weight...and I hate it!

I take- photos all the time...because I want a way for myself/my parents/my friends a way of remembering the good times when I am no longer here...

I usually - do the same thing day after day...isn't that boring? But I get paid to do it so I don't care.

I search - for new information about Pulmonary Hypertension all the time...even when I shouldn't (i.e. work)...I think its an obsession...

I am not - as confident as other's think I am.

I dance - terribly and I HATE doing it...

I wish - I was able to have my own kids...because I don't think I will qualify for adoption or have enough money for a private surrogacy...

I go nutty- when people say one thing and do another, cause drama when they don't have to, get into a unhealthy relationship when they shouldn't, drag their kids though unhealthy relationship, continue to be in relationships that are obviously not healthy or productive.

I get angry- with stupid people. Don't drive in the fast lane if you are going under the speed limit. Don't get pissed at me when YOU cross the solid white line and cut me off causing me to get angry and tailgate you.

I rarely - doing anything for myself and would rather do stuff for others...but I am going to change that this year!

I miss- having a dog...

I think- I should have boyfriend by now and I really wish I did but I don't think that it is fair to have a guy fall in love with me and then I get really sick and die. It's just not fair...

I cry - rarely...

I get pissed off- when people lie and don't think I can see right through it (I can detect bullshit a mile away) and don't think I don't know it...

I can't- do everything I wish I could..

I am not always - truthful...I tend not to say things that bother me in fear that I will hurt some one's feelings.

I lose - stuff all the time...and I hate it...

I fear - the Hospital all the time/that Remodulin will stop working one day/ that my IV line gets infected (again...)/ that something happens to my IV line...there is too much to list...

I'm confused - as to why, out of 20,000 people who have PH in the world...why do I have to have it?

I need - to get a will so I can make sure that my parents get my life insurance policy when I die (am I the only 25 with a life insurance policy?)

I should - take it easy/take more PH drugs...but I don't want to live my life taking 20 something pills each day...

I dream - about nothing...because I wake up due to sleep apnea due to my PH...

I hate- that some people don't have to work for anything and yet still survive, while at the same time I have to work all the time just to survive (literally)...

I remember- very few things because it is a side affect of some of my drugs...

I really- want to get married one day and have kids but I don't think that will happen.

I have - goals and ambitions but I know most likely I won't live long enough to accomplish them all...

I hide- lots of stuff (especially from my parents) like how I feel about things, how I am physically feeling, test results, etc. so I don't scare the people around me...

I know- that I am sick, and I feel sick everyday, even though most people can't tell and I don't say anything...

I think- people don't realize how good they have it/ people whine too much/people really don't know how hard life can get unless they go through something extremely traumatic.

I am- the youngest of most of my friends but I think I am the most mature because of what I have gone through already in my life...

I dislike- A. messy homes/rooms/bathrooms...yuck! B. People who argue with others because 1)they just like to hear the sound of their own voice 2) they always think they are right 3) they love to argue 4)they have to always prove themselves C. People who try to act like they are smarter/better/wiser than they really are D. Fake people E. Lazy people F. People who waste money on things that are pointless when they really need to spend it on more important stuff. G. People who can't get their life together when other's depend on them.

I regret- that I didn't go away to college/doing more during college (i.e. study abroad, travel, take "fun" classes like photography, pottery, etc.)

I love - my family and friends and my little godson more than anything else in the world...